Pop the cork. It is whine time.
I think I have done pretty well at tournaments; I am still ahead money. So I decided to tackle 2 - 5 live games and on line (now playing much lower!).
I played on the Belle in Baton Rouge, bought in twice at $300 per, and got busted twice by flaky pre-flop calls. One guy called my 5xBB bet with 8-6o, and hit both while I, with A-K hit an K on the flop for TPTK. The other guy raised 5xBB with JJ, I raised to $75 with A-A, and he flopped J-7-7, and I got busted. My buddy who plays regularly there said, “If they go all-in, they haveit.” I wish he'd told me that before I starte instead of after.
Played in a live game in Natchez and got busted out in the first two hands. In the first with TPTK a guy went all in with a four to a flush after the flop and hit it. The next guy, with me holding TPTK, put me all-in and busted me with a set he made on the flop. Okay, that's just poker, I guess.
I played another live game and won $350.00 in about an hour and had to leave.
The last live game was a minimum $300 buy-in. I bought in for $500.00, and played my usual tight aggressive game. I doubled up against the toughest player there when I made the nut flush on the turn, and acting before him, checked knowing how aggressive he was. I got it all in when I reraised and he called with a smaller flush.
Then, with an $1100 stack, I sat there and lost every single penny after telling myself, “I rode with a friend who is quitting early; all I have to do is sit here and be really tight and I'll leave with money.” But I dribbled it away in hands similar to the one when I raised pre-flop with A-Qo, the flop was 889, made a contiuation bet, which was called, the turn was 9, I checked, he bet, I called, and the river was a blank. He threw in a further $200, and the pot odds were right to call. I thought he was bluffing anyway. He said, “I have the idiot full house,” expecting me to have the big one.
On line I sit there and play tight aggressive and build up my stack over an hour or so. Then, I will get sucked out on, which is poker, or I will get involved in hands against loose players when I have, for instance, A-Ko, miss the flop to something like J,6, 2, make a C-bet, and get raised. Well, it's just ace high so I lay it down.
Sometimes in similar situations I make the C-bet, but they are first to act, and when I miss the flop, they raise. I do a lot of laydowns.
But, there are the times when I see a player doing this or coming over the top too much, and I call or reraise. They always seem to have it then!
And, nobody yet has told me how to get out of the way when I have aces and kings and they have a set.
Heck, once in one hour I lost with two full houses to two sets of quads!
In fifteen minutes I had QQ, raised, next guy called, the third raised, and I ended up all in against Aces. A few hands later with KK, it was the same deal: he had Aces. About five hands after that I get A-A and min raise to get action and everyone folds. Everybody!
Look, for whatever reason, I am a net loser in live games and ring games on the internet. On the internet I have contiually lowered my stakes — not to keep from losing big money, but to garner experience without forking all the money. It doesn't seem to make any difference if I am playing on line in $2 - $5, $0.10 - $0.25, or, God forbid, $0.05 - $0.10, I continually lose.
Damn it, it is not about the money for me. At least not yet and not at this level. I am fortunate to have earned enough money so that I could play like an idiot. But I don't want to. I won't. Unfortunately, the money is the yardstick by which success is measured, and I am coming up short. I am willing to keep going and losing if I can believe that there is light at the end of the bad beats, crappy play on my part, and the hard work I put into it.
Now, I am not the smartest apple in the orchard, but I am a long way from the dumbest. I won my state chess championship the first of three times in a row in my fourth year of playing. I went on to run two successful businesses, and I invest successfully in hedge funds. I have always thought that controlling risk in poker was similar to the same thing in business and the stock market. Am I wrong?
Now, I am in my fourth year of poker, and I am disappointed, depressed, disgusted, and disillusioned about my prospects for learning the game. I have read all the books — except Ed's on cash game, and it is on the desk for next. I have read most of them two and three times. It seems to me, that luck is a much greater component of this game than I had imagined.
I am not a quitter, but I'd like to see some progress in the ring games like I had in tournaments. I know this is a whiny, long, winding message, and I doubt it will do anybody any good except me, by letting me let off steam. But, if there is any advice except the sort that goes, “Just stay with it” “don't give up the fight” “You'll get there eventually” etc., I'd like to hear it.
Sorry. I'm through.
Not yet. I cannot stand losing. I am a bad loser. I don't care what it is, I just can't take losing. And NL Hold'em is the toughest nut I have ever tried to crack.
Now I am through.
Natcheztoo — Jerry Krouse