Cool! I knew I was good for something.
Funny thing is, a kinda hit tilt after I made this post!
Was playing today at a table of real good loosies at a .50/$1.00, but I was just not hitting anything. I got drawn out a time or two, came back, then got drawn out again. That's when it hit.
The funny thing is, I was convinced I just made terrbile decicions all day. I did, but only after I was on tilt. I raised to try to "make something happen", made a few loose calls hoping to get lucky, didn't fold a hand that i was terribly behind in on the flop and took it to the river. Those cost me 12 bb today.
But I was down 50bb for the day! Where did the rest of it go? Where were the other bad decisions I made from eariler?
I opened up Poker Tracker and tried to figure it out. I filtered all my hands to "went to showdown". I was actually ahead 12bb there!
I then noticed that I didn't really get involved in many hands at all. Not surprising since I'm tight pre-flop, but surprising that in out of the 378 hands I played today, only 28 of them I took to a showdown!
With 378 hands, thats almost 80 BB and SB plays. I looked at my blinds play and out of those, only half of those seen the flop, only 5 of those went to a showdown.
I guess the point I'm trying to make is, sometimes, the cards don't come. I didn't get a lot of play and opportunities. Since the opportunties were smaller, it seemed worse when I lost a few times in a row. It affected the way I played later.
Nothing was going to stop me from losing 38bb today. But that was normal bad day. I've had them before. It's the 12bb I lost when I lost my head that hurts me in the long run. That 38bb is just the way it goes sometimes and will come back as long a I play right. That 12bb is just gone forever.